I have to admit something. I looked at my computer today and thought, “Do I have to write another post today?” Immediately I reprimanded myself. Yes, I do have a crazy inner dialogue that argues back and forth. It is kind of like having an angel on one side and a devil on the other.
The truth is, I sometimes grow a little weary in my faith. Do I have to do this, or do I have to do that? Well, the answer is always that I am free to choose what I do, but what blessings would I lose if I did not follow through with my commitment? How would my understanding of God be diminished if I suddenly packed up and left the wilderness? No, I must continue, hoping and waiting for the next God moment to surprise me and enrich my life.
Commitment is the hardest part of a faith practice. There are times that we want to surrender and say, “Not today God. I am just tired. I’ll worship you tomorrow.” And the funniest thing happens when we fail to carry through, we never pick up where we left off. One decision to stop alters everything else. We abandon the wilderness for good, promising that we will return one day.
Today, I am thankful that I did not listen to that “other” inside voice that begged me to take it easy. The truth is, I am finding solace and comfort by remaining on my path. Holiness invites me to a new approach to life and the world around me. And to think, I almost gave up. God speaks, and I still listen.